Posted by Anonymous on 2015/05/26 under Uncategorized Ive been debating my general feelings towards life now alot compared to what i use to. Im 21 years old and have had a pretty good life, good family, good education, good upbringing. Back in school i competely thrived, i used to make people laugh all the time and the feeling you get when you can make people laugh day in day out is incredible, i was pretty popular because a was a bit different and witty. Since i moved to university when i was 18 ive felt like ive lost this part of myself somewhere, even with close friends. It just feels like i get a complete mindblock in social situations, most of the time im able to act “normal” in these situations but im starting to get sick of being just normal, i used to have my own unique personality but now thats just gone. Its starting to really effect me I feel like i will never get this part of me back. I also feel like im a different person all the time, but im not trying to be, and when people say you just need to trust yourself and act the way you are im just thinking, well what the f*** is that? when i see people who are so comfortable with what there saying all the time, no matter what people think , it makes me so envious. And the reason these people are liked and respected is because they are so comfortable. Every time I try to act and say whats on my mind i feel like this is showing in my body language and facial expression and I can literally feel myself acting weird and sounding weird but have no control over it. I dont even know if this makes sense to anyone, even me, but i just needed to output it in some way, any help is appreciated.